release.

i think today was the first day i missed you. at least, a different kind of miss. the desire to call you up or send you a text wasn't fueled by the need to fill an aching void. it wasn't fueled by my hurt or my incessant tears--tears that never seemed to run dry, and could be sparked by the simplest gesture, word, or reminder. it wasn't even fueled by bitterness or hatred--because i felt that too. this time...i just genuinely missed you. i think about where you are, what you're doing, how God is working in your life. there are new things and awesome changes i wish i could share with you but then i remember... there weren't any sobs to the heavens for understanding. no anguish delivered in rage-filled cries. i won't lie, i miss you friend... all i can do is pray that one day we can revive our friendship, as new people, poised to sustain the love that i know never went away. maybe at first it was good-bye... now i hope it's "see you later."