chaos under wraps.

so, anybody that knows me...basically, anybody who's ever been to my house lol...knows that K. Riley is not the neatest person in the world.

...(boy, is that an understatement)...

but quite frankly, i'm tired of the clutter. "a cluttered mind is a cluttered space." i believe that with every fiber of my being. i've prayed about it, and i believe God does answer prayers about stuff like this...but i think that He gave me a brain to realize that i need to start making some strides to working on this problem.

it's not the devil...he doesn't have me bound...
though, it definitely feels like it!
and i'm sure he has something to do with it too.

i just...i can't do it anymore. i've missed so many great opportunities this year, not even counting years in the past.
i shouldn't dread coming home, and only wanna sleep when i get here.
i shouldn't avoid home altogether b/c i can't stand being here.
i shouldn't cringe when people want to come visit...

i have dreams of having dinner parties, entertaining ppl, or just hanging out. and i wanna do all those things at MY place. no one elses. above all, i just wanna feel at home in my own home...

so i got The Complete Idiot's Guide to Organizing Your Life. yea...in a short 400 pages, i shall be organized. i'm going to do a chapter a day, and hopefully get this ridiculous problem under control.

pray for me.
cry with me.
cheer me on.

Lord, be my strength! here we go...