over the last couple of days, i've been in a very...idk...weird mood. i'm still not sure exactly what i've been feeling. i guess a good description would be unbalanced. paying attention to my feelings is a relatively new concept for me. i know, that sounds odd...most people can identify their feelings, then act on them appropriately. i on the other hand have difficulty identifying them, so i act on them...yes, you guessed it...inappropriately. but i digress...
anywho, long story short, i'm still not quite sure what i'm feeling when i actually feel it. because of this, i've been in a funky mood for about a week...unable to determine if i'm happy, sad, mad, anxious...i just don't know. what i do know is that i've been thinking a lot about things that i've struggled with in the past, and about things that i still struggle with. after all that, i figured out how i felt...extremely discouraged. that heightened this morning as i tried to resume my daily running/exercising. it was like day 1 all over again. it was disheartening to not even be able to make it through half of the run...so i just ended up walking the rest of the way. then i heard a song by Addison Road. this part of the song stood out the most to me...
even when your heart's been broken
He'll be there with arms wide open
be strong and His love will lead you
to fight another day
now, the song didn't make my walk any easier...and it definitely didn't erase my mind the things i'd been thinking about. yet it did do something...it renewed my faith in the idea that things may be difficult now, but they won't always be that way. i have faith that God will help me through this. like someone said on a prayer call a few days ago..."faith doesn't get you around trouble, it gets you THROUGH trouble."
so i'm gonna continue pressing through. and whatever you're dealing, know that God will be there to help you through it too...even if things seem impossible.
remember, always keep running. <3
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