gloves aren't the only things in glove compartments.

i am not an organized person.
never have been. not sure if i ever will be...but that's another blog for another time.
even still, it's rare that i misplace things of significant importance...
[yea, i didn't even believe that when i wrote it]

ok, so i inherited a car a few months ago, and for those of you who don't know...like i didn't...you have to get the title switched to your name and blah blah blah. i did all that, then forgot to check for it in the mail. long story short...7 months later...i'm semi-frantic over not having it in my ridiculously junky apt. then after weeks of searching, between me and mom, she finds it in her glove compartment on a whim. i was worried, but i wasn't overly concerned. frankly, i'd made up in my mind to just buy another one (tho i was dreading dishing out 80 big ones for it :-/)

what's the point of all this? honestly, it's been a rough week for me. on top of a rough year! spiritually, i've been all over the place...not sure if i'm coming or going, believing or doubting. i know a lot of stuff ABOUT God. but i don't know Him. and that makes it hard to believe what He says. it makes it difficult to trust that when He promises me something, He'll deliver. to you, an envelope in a locked glove box is just that--an envelope that was misplaced, and now is found. but to me, it was a small eraser. and, for now, it has only erased a glimmer of doubt in my mind about who God is and what i mean to Him. yet, He took the time to fix something so small, so insignificant on the grand scheme of things. He cares so much about the small stuff, that He can only care a million times more about the large stuff too.

and that speaks volumes above the doubt screaming in my head.

thank You. :-)