so, i just got back from a wedding. if you don't know this about me, i LOVE weddings! i watch like as many bridal shows as i can lol but i rarely get to actually attend a wedding. it was really nice...not too long, good timing with everything...very classy. it was an elegant way to spend my Saturday :-) plus, i got to do a mini-road trip with my fav buddy, Talia! i tried to tell her this in the car, but let's face it...when it comes to me expressing my own feelings, i stink horribly at it :-/ anywho, i love hanging around her...she's cool, uses awesome words like mamashank (yep, go ahead and google it lol)...she's just a fun person to be around. her and her family too. yet even more so, i find it so easy to talk to her...it's crazy how i don't find myself wanting to stay guarded around her. how i don't feel so defensive, how i don't feel like fighting or hiding. it's...easy......
ok, i know all relationships take work, and i know there will be problems. but lately i've been looking at some of my friendships or interactions with people i know. and they just require so much effort...i feel so judged all the time, or like i'm a project to be accomplished [like, "oh, it's hard for K to trust so let me work extra hard for her to trust me and then i'll be crowned greatest friend ever"]. some work is required, on both parts, but it shouldn't take so much out of me. it shouldn't have to be so hard... i don't get that heartache with her. she...makes it ok to be me.
part of me is like, wait a sec...this is too good to be true. and sometimes, i feel that part taking over. but then she'll do something and that part goes away. she makes me believe that not everyone is out to hurt me. that's refreshing, and most definitely gives me hope about future relationships/friendships...
:-)
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