'ships and rocky waters.

look at me very closely.
a little closer.
does my forehead read "complicated?"
yes? *sigh* i thought so.
why do i seem to attract people who just make my life complicated???
i can do that on my own!

i prayed for closure on this situation a little while ago. months ago. i was upset over what i feel was an unfortunate miscommunication. but really, aren't all fights simply miscommunications? anyways, my group member/friend and i stopped talking over a group assignment. when you don't talk to someone, and things are left to interpretation, one usually interprets incorrectly. and as a worse-case scenario. so i assumed the worst, felt hurt, turned that into anger, then erased it and the friend from my memory.

nifty, huh?

but way past my point of forgetting, i get a random call. and everything is brought back to the forefront. whhhyyyyyyyy??? couldn't she just have never called back, and then...any time the situation was brought up (if it ever was) or if i saw her again (which i would, since we're in the same program), i would be justified in ignoring her?! so now, the ball's in my court. she's fine with everything...she got everything off her chest. i did too...

sorta.
well, not really.
see, she re-hashed my anger. how dare she treat ME that way? [yea, i said it] and this isn't the first time something like this happened. she's known for her crazed antics, for lack of a better term. how forgiving should one be? am i stupid for considering forgetting all that happened?

how do you know when to keep someone around and when to let them go...for real, this time?